I hope he gets the help he clearly needs and has needed for a long time. Get out there and find a sponsor that’s a gay man with a solid ten years sober and get out of the city for awhile.
Their attempts at sobriety aren’t going to help YOU stay sober. Repeated use of antibiotics won’t work anymore if you’re high on meth while taking it because your core body temperature is running higher and your immune system is compromised.įinally, DON’T GO RUNNING BACK TO YOUR USING BUDDIES. MRSA may lay dormant in scar tissue then will spread quickly into the bloodstream and heart tissue with chronic repeat use of meth. This is a critical time for most addicts- because your body has reached it’s absolute limit with this drug.Īlso, many of the health consequences of drugs like GHB and meth LINGER and may become PERMANENT. People that overdose or come close to overdosing on party drugs have completely fried their brain synapses and make associations and assumptions that border on mental illness. Some advice Jack- STOP DOING METH and don’t post ANYTHING until you come down off of it. I’m also at Lenox Hill Hospital and I’ve been moved to room 7618D.) (Btw I should get out of the hospital today or tomorrow but I don’t have a proper phone as I don’t have a SIM card so I can only use internet based apps. I’m hopeful for the future living sober and with rigorous honestly. I have completely surrendered to my addictions and I’m mortified, humbled, ashamed and depressed.
I take full responsibility for my actions and will work to make reparations to anyone I have affected negatively. I plan to enter an inpatient rehab facility as soon as I am able and hopefully get my life back.Īgain I am DEEPLY sorry for anyone I have hurt or disappointed in any way. I can’t live like this anymore and I need help. This lead to a rapid detox in the hospital which was the cause of my seizure. I was probably drinking for almost a week straight from morning to night sleeping or passing out whenever I could until my mind and body just said “no” and I staggered to ask my room mate to call 911. I didn’t have my regular pills like Xanax or Clonazepam so my only option was alcohol (which I actually hate) but it was better than being in my own head. I can no longer control my anxiety or sleep without depressants. This leads to the actual reason for my hospitalization in my post above. My drug use increased exponentially and therefore I needed even more downers to allow me to come down and sleep. This was in the weeks leading up to my crash and burn.Īfter we broke up I went into a deep shame spiral. The last few weeks we were together I lied, I stole and damaged his property, I made him feel unsafe. Drugs are no excuse for behavior as there were a litany of bad decisions that got me there. During and after our very messy break up I was f-ed up most of the time and not in my right mind. Near the end of my relationship with Christopher Ellsworth I started using meth again and taking large amounts of pills to come down. Up until this week, I can’t remember a time when I didn’t go to sleep without some sort of pill-usually abusing them. I’m not sure if it really ramped up because of trump or most certainly the COVID isolation but I have been self-medicating for a long time. The truth is that I haven’t been OK for quite a while. I don’t typically like to post my personal issues on FB but I need to fully explain and make amends and there is one person in particular who really deserves a public apology. Here below is Mackenroth’s full Facebook statement, which begins with his theory that his drug use may have “ramped up” recently “because of Trump or most certainly the COVID isolation” Today, Mackenroth is speaking publicly again, but this time it’s to apologize to Dietrich for “lying” about him, and to admit that he’s been suffering from an addiction to methamphetamine and “large amounts of pills.” Just three weeks ago, Project Runway star turned gay porn performer Jack Mackenroth came forward to allege that his ex-boyfriend-gay porn star Dolf Dietrich-had assaulted him.